What I loved the most about the film is how it depicts how we allow negativity to affect us and how our insecurities can make us do things in which are completely out of character. I've been modeling since the age of 14 and grew up with in the industry so have seen it far too often about how people self destruct and allow negative experiences to ruin our lives. And it is a life where there is so much competition, so much superficiality, and basically where people are cut throat. People will befriend you just to get close to those around you or for an opportunity to further themselves. It's one reason I am super private and all more the reasons I seldom trust people. It is almost as if you have to be highly selective about those who you allow into your inner circle. Yet, at the same time I should feel flattered [as someone recently told me] because there must be something good enough that they want to strive to be.
It used to be super difficult for me at first especially with my parents and my big brother but now I have learned to block out everything that is negative. I mean, yes I do have emotions and do have feelings and have had experiences like in the Black Swan it's almost as if people [some] are waiting for that moment for you to self destruct so they can get ahead because you are where they want to be. Thankfully, I have my close knit friends, my faith/spirituality, and a supportive fan base [pagers] whom I love so dearly...Pagers thank you so much for believing in my weirdness always, for coming to shows and it is one reason I hope I can always remain humble and continue to inspire people in a positive way, always be you, be original. No one can replace you...no one can replace me...as I mentioned before, pagers 2013 is our year.
much love
Nat
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