Happy Valentine's Day

Yes. I do realise that tomorrow is Valentine's Day and tomorrow millions of people will be out buying cards, flowers, candy etc for those they love; people always ask me what do I think of the holiday and I have a love/hate relationship with it and I don't always talk about my past but going to share a bit of it.
 I lost my Mum a few days after Valentine's Day and we lost Gwynnie a few days before [Gwynnie is the daughter of a friend who is very special to me she would have been 6 years old this year] so the day itself is surrounded by many painful memories.
  I also remember being in school I was always teased and would watch all my friends get cards, etc and I hardly ever receive anything and my Mum would always send me flowers just so I wouldn't be left out and that is the type of person my Mum was. I was bullied so badly throughout school just because I was "different".  She had such a huge heart [ like my big brother] and would give the coat off her back for a complete stranger if she felt that person needed it more. One reason I try so hard to give back because in doing so it helps keep her memory alive and know it would make her proud.
  So this year for Valentine's Day, I am going to spend time with hospice patients they need love more than ever. It saddens me when I see patients who are alone with no one coming to visit them because I know how that feels to be alone. Losing my parents was one of the hardest things I had ever experienced...so I had to grow up really fast and had to be 40 when I was 15 pretty much. I really don't want sympathy or pity from anyone  but this is why I am so close to my big brother, he was there and looked after me. If it wasn't for him and his band mates and giving me music as my outlet I really would be in a very dark place right now. Now that my big brother is gone keeping his memory alive is just as important too now.
  I've learned how precious each day is and never be afraid to tell those you love how you feel about them. Each day is truly a gift and I try to make the most of it everyday.
  So, on tomorrow think of those who don't have anyone...like me because it is days like tomorrow when believe it or not...we need it the most.
 
xoxo

Nat