most may know or heard I have the biggest fear of doing runway shows; think it is mostly in part of having that comparison with my Mum. Not that I don't mind it but in all actuality it is the fear of letting people down...the pressure because people who were familiar with my Mum have super high expectations; my fear is not living up to them. On another note, I for a long while had been anti runway because it was more to have my own identity so to speak, but today think finally overcame those fears about my modeling and me as a person. I learned that it is okay to be like my parents and it is also okay to have a little bit of "me" in there as well...like a balance between the two. I've been so fortunate to have two really amazingly talented and creative parents and not just myself but my sisters and brother as well because they too are creatives in their own rights.
I am finally getting to that point in my life of acceptance and being content or at least at peace with how things are for right now. So, I kind of exorcised my "demons" [so to speak figuratively] and made peace with the fact of who my parents were and the person I am becoming and hope to still become. We're not perfect we all make mistakes but that helps us grow and I too am still in that growing and learning stage of life. So far, just taking steps at a time...and finally discovered walking the runway isn't so scary after all. Plus it also helps when they play Justin while walking...that definitely helps! LOL!!!!
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