Answering the Retirement Rumours

"People have been asking me as of late when am I to perform again? There is no simple or easy answer to that question; I continue to tell myself ‘I will perform again when I am ready’? Now the question remains am I ever going to be ‘ready’ to dance again? The thought of leaving dance has never been an option for me as I will always be a dancer it has been a part of me since I was a young child, yet this latest experience has made me question the very essence of dance as an art and as a lifestyle. Some may call it the ‘Black Swan’ effect. I find myself asking the questions what is the purpose of pursuing ‘fame’ and ‘attention’ if there is nothing to fully show for it? Sure, the attention is nice but always there is something lacking in the atmosphere in the dance community where I am in currently. Dance has always been a beautiful form of communication and in past interviews I've expressed that I would ‘retire’ from burlesque once I felt burned out or if things progressed in my personal life to where I wanted to focus more on those things. My loved ones are important and dance will always be there for me never without a doubt in this, but was everything all worth it in the end? I don’t have any regrets and I am not ‘retiring’, I will perform burlesque again but it will be on my terms as it should always be. I want to be the sort of performer that I am enjoying my art I was being someone I wasn't and never felt comfortable. I’m not a hip hop person nor am I to be a marketing ploy for others. I am so grateful for the Pagers, Beliebers, Arianators who have been so incredibly supportive and I love them all from the bottom of my heart. So for now, I will continue to perform and enjoying these moments and however far it will take me.”