the enemy

I  tend  to be drawn to music and numbers as a performer that have a tendency to really hit home for me; all of my routines mark a certain event in my life and for me it is my way of putting that wall down to let the audience in and see a part of me that most or only a few see regularly. 

  This new number "the enemy" by one of my favourite bands, of verona is a song in which I can relate to on so many levels in my life right now. The routine itself symbolizes all of the hate I have been getting since I started performing as well other issues regarding my personal life. I am a very private person so it is really difficult to have certain aspects out in the open and this routine is my way of telling all of the negative people, the doubters, the haters that I am here to stay...I don't plan to go anywhere any time soon.

Over the past months and more recently have lost friendships over me performing...me being branded a "slut", "cunt", etc etc [and apologies for the language but this is what I've been and still being called]. You know, I don't judge people for who they choose to love or what they choose to do with their lives...people can at least be respectful and respect my privacy as well the privacy of others.

  You know people may not realize it too but I do see what people say/write and I tend to be quiet a lot of the times, but I know and I do have feelings like everyone else and yes there are moments where I do want to go somewhere and cry because it is frustrating hearing and seeing all of those things especially when done nothing to people. So people think about the words you do use towards others and how it would make that person feel. 

  Overall, this number is about being the "enemy" towards people who were once your friends, society  because it is something that society and people become afraid of so they tend to make that the enemy it is also about letting all of that go and be strong.

much love.

Natalie