i put on my raincoat....

Yellow Raincoat is by far one of my favourite songs off the Believe Acoustic album; so much so I choreographed a routine to the song and will be performing it in a week and half for the first time. The song is  one I can definitely relate to especially now with everything happening in my own life [regarding friends and some other personal issues] and I too have a tendency to let on that everything is "fine" when it's not. I too have a tendency to put on a raincoat to look happy to everyone on the outside but inside there is so much going on...I am a sea of secrets! I do have three really close friends with whom I confide in [in addition to someone else whom I feel I could confide in] But going to be completely honest it's really difficult for me to relate to people and for me communicating it is through music and dancing [or burlesque should say right now] it's what feels natural to me.
  But, this song out of all spoke to me the most because as mentioned before can relate to putting that guard up to keep things and sometimes people out...basically a wall and think it is more for protection because I've been let down quite a bit by others, ex boyfriend etc. so yea I do have trust issues with people and it's hard for me to just let anyone in. So, yes I will be performing yellow raincoat and honestly really hope I can do the song and choreography justice  because it's beautifully written music and lyrics.
  Right now, it is for me not allowing all the negativity to affect me in ways it has done in the past and even now still; people will always have something negative to say or do and learned/ still learning how to cope with it all. I deal with it on a smaller scale so can only imagine on a much larger scale and don't know how my Mum and big brother dealt with it all. If anything I've learned this past month is I am human and make mistakes just like everyone and still trying to learn all of this in my world [burlesque].
  I really cannot wait to perform this routine and excited actually in some sense, but yes it is a personal number for me because it is sort of letting my guard down and allowing the audience to see a glimpse of who I am as think something every performer does.

xoxo

much love,
Nat