A Sorta Fairtytale

I am quite certain a few will read this blog entry and jump for joy as I write this next sentence:
"I am retiring from burlesque".

Not "officially" retiring but taking a break for many reasons. One of them being I have since returned to school and being the medical field already makes for a difficult schedule to manage. Another reason is I just need a personal break from all that has been happening as of late.

I haven't posted anything about the blog which came out a few weeks ago and yes, it discusses some very private aspects of my life which I have been quiet about up until now. Since people have to run to me like cheerleaders to tell me about the blog and I've indeed read it. I am neutral with it.

I did however, a few months ago post screen shots which were sent to me by a trusted individual. We should all know and realise being adults nothing we ever post via social media is necessary "private". Anyone can easily copy and send anything we write anywhere so be conscious about who you discuss and how you talk about them everything does have a way of venturing back.

Secondly, it angers me to an extent that these individuals are claiming I am harassing and bullying therm. For one, I have not gone out of my way to contact anyone from my former burlesque troupe and possibly just once because the messages were getting to a point where it was out of control. I don't know anyone in their right mind who is older than me to write me the sort of messages they have been. Also, they need to stop playing the "victims". I don't have any "beef" with anyone of you and having beef with someone would mean that we wouldn't like one another...I just simply don't care about any of you.

 Thirdly, as always my personal life has always been my business. If I don't want to talk about whom I am dating/involved with that is my choice and just live with it. I am not required to tell any person anything I don't feel comfortable doing. Live with it.

Lastly, the rumours: I'm not crazy and obsessed with anyone from my former burlesque troupe. I mean who keeps taking screen shots of my facebook and passing it among one another in attempts to humiliate me? They continue to message my friends [and for two weeks straight sent death threats to one of my best friends], and my cousin I didn't "steal" anyone's boyfriend or anything else. Just get over it. 

I don't feel sad or anyway about either of them. I actually feel sorry for them. I think there is something missing in their own lives that they have to continuously belittle someone to make themselves feel better. It's low self esteem on their end actually. I'm not insecure, I'm not jealous and not a hater because really there isn't anything they have I would want. I have my own job and career; they are making themselves out to be more than what is necessary.

I am thankful for experiences in burlesque because I did learn alot about myself as a person and as a person, so it is a good bye for always just for a little bit. I do intend to perform in Trauma again next year and I actually have some projects of my own brewing. I just need to be away from that negativity.

Never give up on anything and there will always be people who don't like you for whatever reason and that is a part of life. Maybe my former burlesque troupe never liked me but at least respect me as a human being, and even with that I really don't care much about them at all.