it all affects me too but me more so indirectly....

life in general can be hard and the things we experience when we are younger are quite different than when we are slightly older. I know looking back on relationships my view is quite different actually way more different than even three years ago. Sometimes we are not meant to understand things or there are things we don't understand and maybe I feel as I do because I am a little bit older [but I did grow up faster than most people my age, kind of had to]. I am not here to bash anyone or point fingers, blame but I do know how I feel because believe it or not...it does affect me I feel indirectly. Sometimes when we care deeply about a person and love them all we can do is just be there for him and have faith and trust that everything will work out...one of the things I learned growing up.

 where the river cross, crosses the lake

 where the words jump off my pen

and into your pages

do you think just like that

you can divide this

you as yours me as mine

to before we were us?

if the rain has to separate 

from itself does it say

pick out your cloud?

if there is a horizontal line

[i'm gonna stay right here]

that runs from the map 

[i'm gonna stay with this]

off your body

straight through the land

[i'm staying with you]

shooting up

right through my heart

will this horizontal line

[i'm gonna stay right here]

when asked how to find

where you end, and where

i begin? just pick out your cloud

how light can play

and form a ring of rain

that can change bows into arrows

[i found a thrill]

who we were isn't lost

to before we were us

indigo is his own blue

i always knew this

if the rain has to separate

from itself does it say

pick out your cloud?

your cloud