why my inspiration is what it is.....

All of my young adult life there have been only two musicians who have fully inspired me: Michael Jackson and Justin Bieber. No, I am not going to sit here and write a long fangirl letter (although to MJ I could write about 50 years worth which is more than double my age almost) but nonetheless even now people make fun of me for listening to Michael Jackson and Justin Bieber but do I care? Not one single bit; think majority of it was I always liked what I liked what others thought who really cared? 
 But I remember Michael Jackson and he was the first musician I was able to see live believe it or not. Growing up with a musician Mum, I had been quite fortunate to meet many musicians and experience so much at such a young age, my first concert was probably right after I was born and it was my Mum's. Yet, it was also MJ who really stuck with me and I remember him being very quiet and shy and very polite; I loved him when I first heard his music at about the age of 6 it was also around that time I went to my first ballet and ever since music and dancing became a huge part of my life. There were so many memories associated with listening to MJ and I would go into the basement watch his videos and just dance for probably hours. Music and dancing was my escape from what was at the time a very difficult childhood. My parents divorced so I pretty much lived with my Mum especially when my Dad remarried, so my sisters and I hardly saw my Dad; it was okay (it wasn't) but music comforted me on so many ways, it also gave me my voice. In middle school I was diagnosed as an aspie and even now I feel like I am not "normal" and even at my age bullied, people make fun of me all the time because to them I am the "lonely girl".
  When my parents died I lost my voice and to be honest, it wasn't until I heard Justin's music that pretty much brought me back to life and in some ways he has taught me what it is to believe again. Before my Mum died those were her words to me that just to believe in myself, in my dreams, in my faith and that she will still be there to guide me no matter what. I didn't get to spend as much time on Earth with my parents as I had hoped but so thankful for what time I did get to spend with them and how much in such a short time they have taught me. If anything I want to give back during my time on Earth just as they have. 
  Even now people make fun of me for being an orphan  or not having much family, or an abundance of friends or the popular girl; yet, now when I listen to music I truly feel like a less lonely girl and know deep down in my heart I am one. My parents are still here and my Mum is right and so is Justin...miracles can happen if we just believe. 
xoxo