unthinkable

if there was a song to describe my life right now...it would be this:

Saturday benefit to end discrimination

This Saturday, April 13 some friends and I will be participating in a fundraising to help fight against discrimination. Recently, a same sex couple were refused the right to adopt their foster children and were blatantly discriminated against because of this fact; honestly, I feel if a couple is willing to provide a high risk child or children with a stable home, love and positive environment they should be allowed to do so. I am behind the couple 110% and the benefit will help them raise money to help with legal costs wishing them all the best and definitely showing support. So once again, several friends including myself will be doing special performances at BossyGrrls this weekend to help raise money any info please contact me via twitter, etc. 

thank you all for your continued love and support

much love,

Nat

new beginnings

I think I am definitely at a point in my life where there are new beginnings in almost every aspect of my life; if anything so thankful for the friends who I do still have and also care about as well are super amazing. I am so fortunate to have an amazing group of friends, I don't have many people whom I am close to so you girls rock [Bettie Noir, Dany, Sabrena] especially after everything that has happened these past few months sometimes we learn who our true friends are but that is all behind me now.
 In any event it is time to put the past behind me and look forward to the future and just accepting whatever changes and people who will come into my life as a performer and as well personally,  but not worried because know it will all be for the better; just living life learning and growing....

much love,
Nat

life of an insomniac

Okay so once again I am unable to sleep; maybe it is because I like to think too much late at night and worry about things that really shouldn't or just trying to figure things out in my life. My life is cool no complaints but in a few short months I've learned : who my real friends are...and sadly that meant ending a friendship with someone I thought was one of my best friends, finally coming to terms with the past and letting it go, and everything about what I originally had thought has been completely altered...but in a good way, and finally about trust...I really don't trust many people. Maybe this is just growing up or maybe this is just truly discovering the different facets of life, so going to try and get some sleep and know that whatever will be will be but whatever the outcome it will be amazing <3

every girl has a prince charming...this is mine....

Je suis si désireux qu'il vient de me demander de sortir alors :-)

going from one extreme to the other....

someone said something to me not too long ago that hadn't really thought of until now; she asked me if I had realised like how much I have accomplished as far modeling and the photographers I've worked with, etc. she also mentions how for me it's almost like it's no "biggie" and in reality it kind of is. Not saying that to come across as arrogant or cocky because so not my intentions and really think it is beyond that; think it is because I was just raised to be "normal" and humble. Personally, I don't like to broadcast that I've done xyz for abc just not my style. People know I model, people know I do photoshoots, people know I perform and people know [most] about my parents and big brother and who my close friends are. It's just we were always raised to be down to Earth, humble and loyal to our friends and family...it's just how we all are/were. If people want my modeling resume sure no problem but I honestly don't like to walk around broadcasting it all over twitter or facebook just isn't my thing. It's also one of the things I hope to keep with me because I want to remain humble and down to Earth and never want to change from that. I'm always going to be that cutesy girl with the Mia Farrow haircut...just more grown up....

:-)

much love,
Nat

relationships...going there....

Since a lot of people have been asking going to just knock it all out right here so to speak haha


What kind of guy am I looking for?

That would be someone with a huge and I mean HUGE sense of humour. I love laughing and it is almost a requirement to hang out with me; I love making people laugh and smile always have so definitely he would have to be someone can just have inside jokes with or just laugh at random stuff also take note my sense of humour is quite warped...I have my Dad's Eastern European sarcastic humour and my Mum's quirky and zany British humour.

I love guys who are intelligent and he doesn't have to be a rocket scientist but someone I can have a decent conversation with. Most guys I think are intimidated by me because I love learning and work in nursing field, my parents encouraged us to continue our schooling if we were to perform. My brother was a systems analyst, my other two sisters are accountants so my parents always encouraged education for us and glad that they did because I can't be a model/performer forever, you know?

Humanitarian work. I am big on humanitarian work myself and hope to be with someone who is into the same. I love guys who have big hearts and are compassionate. The world is so cruel these days and think it is so amazing to see another person think of others it's hardly seen anymore these days. I think it also shows that he isn't selfish honestly, think it would be cool to be with someone travel the world and make people laugh and smile.

Also be my best friend. Really, I don't open up to a lot of people mainly because I have trust issues and people always mistake me as being shy when I'm not it's just that depends on how comfortable I am with people and if can trust them then I will open up and won't be so guarded. I also don't have tons of friends either I do but my best mates are the ones I spend the most time with and they are friends I've had since we were all children basically.  So yea, friendship is definitely a good foundation for a relationship for me at least.

I am slightly old fashioned. I'm not shy to ask a guy out but I prefer that the guy asks me out. I feel like if a guy is truly interested he will make the effort to ask out a girl sure if I like someone I will flirt, etc. and let him know I am into him but he has to take the initial steps though or prefer it if he does.

Nice eyes and smile...two things I definitely look for, can't help it :-)