of course :)
have to have my scarlet's walk <3
Joshua Radin my modern dance teacher helped me discover his music
the white apple- of verona love love this band <3
Friday, February 8, 2013
weekend travel playlist
music I am going to take with me over the weekend :-)
of course :)
have to have my scarlet's walk <3
Joshua Radin my modern dance teacher helped me discover his music
the white apple- of verona love love this band <3
of course :)
have to have my scarlet's walk <3
Joshua Radin my modern dance teacher helped me discover his music
the white apple- of verona love love this band <3
Thursday, February 7, 2013
some things I don't get [I do, but not necessarily]
I really do not understand how someone could be "jealous" of his/her romantic partner especially if that person is a performer? Granted, being a performer myself it is difficult to have a romantic relationship because of a) distance- which I think is a huge part of it and b) trust issues meaning the other person is typically afraid of girls/men fangirling over their romantic partner. If a performer is dating a "normal" person I can completely understand those concerns as this type of life style is definitely not for everyone. Fine, it's okay it happens and it is quite a bit to take in and sometimes even myself need away or down time. Yet, the thing that gets me is when dating another performer to be that way I don't understand. I feel as if okay, you're a performer too so why be upset with the other person?? If I was to date another performer I couldn't ask him to give up performing because know how much of a passion a person has to have for that. So, if he is passionate about an art why ask that person to give it up?
Honestly, I think it just boils down to being secure with yourself as a person and having a strong foundation. Sure, if I am dating someone I would be a little concerned if he would forget me while out on tour or something but that comes along with the territory. If I am going to date another performer I would [or anyone else] accept what all goes with that and that is dealing with fans, fangirling, media, etc. etc and to an extent a guy would have to deal with the same when it comes to myself. Not long ago I had someone tell me...performers do better with other performers; he and his wife had been married for 12 years and dated for 4 years. That is definitely a very long time to be with someone and I hope I can have a romantic partner for that long eventually too. But, he gave me really great advice and think know why because performers understand other performers better....then again we are also human and deal with the vices just as everyone else does.
But, I think when it comes to myself I already know I feel more comfortable with other performers. Mainly, it is all grew up around. Sure, I have a "normal" person's job but it doesn't feel the same meaning I feel entirely awkward in that environment. So in the end...should stick with what we know and for me it is musicians. Call me crazy perhaps but that is all I know. But yea, really don't get that....just some thoughts on the subject.
xoxo
Nat
Honestly, I think it just boils down to being secure with yourself as a person and having a strong foundation. Sure, if I am dating someone I would be a little concerned if he would forget me while out on tour or something but that comes along with the territory. If I am going to date another performer I would [or anyone else] accept what all goes with that and that is dealing with fans, fangirling, media, etc. etc and to an extent a guy would have to deal with the same when it comes to myself. Not long ago I had someone tell me...performers do better with other performers; he and his wife had been married for 12 years and dated for 4 years. That is definitely a very long time to be with someone and I hope I can have a romantic partner for that long eventually too. But, he gave me really great advice and think know why because performers understand other performers better....then again we are also human and deal with the vices just as everyone else does.
But, I think when it comes to myself I already know I feel more comfortable with other performers. Mainly, it is all grew up around. Sure, I have a "normal" person's job but it doesn't feel the same meaning I feel entirely awkward in that environment. So in the end...should stick with what we know and for me it is musicians. Call me crazy perhaps but that is all I know. But yea, really don't get that....just some thoughts on the subject.
xoxo
Nat
Wednesday, February 6, 2013
valentine's day challenge [for everyone]
Yea, I know...I haven't had the luckiest of Valentine's Day in the past [didn't have the best ex boyfriend]; but that's okay because have decided to think of this day as another purpose.So thought of a challenge for this year: instead of buying candy,cards, flowers, etc. I want to go out and do something for those who basically have no one at all for Valentine's Day. So, visit a hospital and patients who are in a hospice unit, or do random acts of kindness for complete strangers...that is the purpose right, to spread love to others. At least, that is my plan for this year...give back to those who feel alone because they shouldn't have to feel that way. It's a thought it may not go far...but it would be rad.
Sometimes if we start small we can create something much larger in life. It's the smallest acts of kindness that can make the most huge impact on us all.
so give back....
xoxo
Nat
Sometimes if we start small we can create something much larger in life. It's the smallest acts of kindness that can make the most huge impact on us all.
so give back....
xoxo
Nat
Tuesday, February 5, 2013
nothing really matters [ray of light]
there are moments to where I like think of moments in my life by albums...meaning the music albums which are significant to me at that point in my life...right now Ray of Light by Madonna sums up pretty much of 2011/2012 for me the good and the bad; needless to say the later part of 2012 was much better and so far 2013 has been a blessing. There were so many lessons I had to learn between then and now and that is so much of life is to grow as people and honestly hope much better person now than before. Ray of Light is significant because even though things have been not so great...there is always that little ray of light...the hope to inspire me to never give up on anything. So guess this album is like an autobiography of my life of what has happened in the past and hopefully of what is to come in the future
now playing: Ray of Light, Madonna
xoxo
Nat
now playing: Ray of Light, Madonna
xoxo
Nat
Monday, February 4, 2013
burlesque Q & A
I've decided to answer all questions [for the most part] about burlesque that have been asked, I try to be open and honest as possible with you all especially the pagers and cannot thank you all again for your support.
Q: This has been asked before but how did you end up in burlesque?
A: by mere accident! No really. I have loads of friends who are burlesque performers and I would just go watch them perform; I also was always really fascinated with the 1950s pin up style so going to burlesque shows just seemed so magical for me and fell in love with it. One of my close friends has her own burlesque troupe and I just decided to go for it and do it best decision ever because it has been wonderful thus far.
Q: Who do you look up to as far burlesque performers?
A: well, there is my burlesque mentor who is just so talented and fabulous. I watch her and so amazed just by stage presence it literally gives me goosebumps. Dita von Teese is my idol I fangirl her constantly and I also love Jo Weldon she inspired my one routine Yellow Raincoat or the choreography for it should say.
Q: What are your favorite routines?
A: Love Me Like You Do. Because it pushes my comfort zone. Being sensual or sharing that depth of being personal with random strangers in the audience definitely takes me out of my comfort zone and for me that is difficult to do. I like Yellow Raincoat because I can relate to keeping a wall up so once again letting all that down and becoming personal with an audience huge challenge for me.
Q: Do you get offended when people refer to you as a stripper?
A: you know, when I very first started right before my first show I watched a Dita von Teese interview and someone asked her that question. She said for the most part it isn't something to be ashamed of nor be offended by because burlesque is more of a classy way to go about entertaining people. I think this is very much the case it's being classy with it. You can be seductive, and to an extent even trashy but it is all about the approach to it. I can be raunchy but what would make a lasting impression is how I go about being raunchy.
Q: How do you feel about Dita von Teese comparisons?
A: I think people like to label someone the next etc etc. I think it is too early and too soon for me in the burlesque world but if people want to make that comparison I am deeply flattered. Does it put pressure? Most definitely but I also love the challenges.
Q: It's been said you don't go nude in routines...why?
A: everyone does it just about. I feel like if everyone sees me naked or topless it wouldn't be special for one person who is lucky enough to see me topless regularly. It sounds snobby but I feel like seeing me naked should be for one lucky guy that may be the old fashion bit in me.
Q: How open is your family about being sexual?
A: my family is pretty open minded, yet conservative. I am we are open about sex but it wasn't like just don't talk about it. I feel there is a time and a place for it [discussing] but then again I think too with us me and my cousins being younger and having a father who was Eastern European the younger generation is much more open than my older siblings though. We're not ashamed of it like now my family is just like "oh okay" thankfully they've been supportive.
Q: What do you feel about sex?
A: Honestly...it is something I wouldn't do with just anyone. If truly like a person and the connection is there go for it; other than that not really commenting ha ha. Details about that aspect of my life should definitely be between me and whomever I decide to be with.
Q: New routines?
A: Well for spring/summer right now I am doing Love Me Like You Do, Yellow Raincoat, and Bad Girl [Madonna] there are a couple songs throwing around I may do a routine to have to wait and see!
Q: This has been asked before but how did you end up in burlesque?
A: by mere accident! No really. I have loads of friends who are burlesque performers and I would just go watch them perform; I also was always really fascinated with the 1950s pin up style so going to burlesque shows just seemed so magical for me and fell in love with it. One of my close friends has her own burlesque troupe and I just decided to go for it and do it best decision ever because it has been wonderful thus far.
Q: Who do you look up to as far burlesque performers?
A: well, there is my burlesque mentor who is just so talented and fabulous. I watch her and so amazed just by stage presence it literally gives me goosebumps. Dita von Teese is my idol I fangirl her constantly and I also love Jo Weldon she inspired my one routine Yellow Raincoat or the choreography for it should say.
Q: What are your favorite routines?
A: Love Me Like You Do. Because it pushes my comfort zone. Being sensual or sharing that depth of being personal with random strangers in the audience definitely takes me out of my comfort zone and for me that is difficult to do. I like Yellow Raincoat because I can relate to keeping a wall up so once again letting all that down and becoming personal with an audience huge challenge for me.
Q: Do you get offended when people refer to you as a stripper?
A: you know, when I very first started right before my first show I watched a Dita von Teese interview and someone asked her that question. She said for the most part it isn't something to be ashamed of nor be offended by because burlesque is more of a classy way to go about entertaining people. I think this is very much the case it's being classy with it. You can be seductive, and to an extent even trashy but it is all about the approach to it. I can be raunchy but what would make a lasting impression is how I go about being raunchy.
Q: How do you feel about Dita von Teese comparisons?
A: I think people like to label someone the next etc etc. I think it is too early and too soon for me in the burlesque world but if people want to make that comparison I am deeply flattered. Does it put pressure? Most definitely but I also love the challenges.
Q: It's been said you don't go nude in routines...why?
A: everyone does it just about. I feel like if everyone sees me naked or topless it wouldn't be special for one person who is lucky enough to see me topless regularly. It sounds snobby but I feel like seeing me naked should be for one lucky guy that may be the old fashion bit in me.
Q: How open is your family about being sexual?
A: my family is pretty open minded, yet conservative. I am we are open about sex but it wasn't like just don't talk about it. I feel there is a time and a place for it [discussing] but then again I think too with us me and my cousins being younger and having a father who was Eastern European the younger generation is much more open than my older siblings though. We're not ashamed of it like now my family is just like "oh okay" thankfully they've been supportive.
Q: What do you feel about sex?
A: Honestly...it is something I wouldn't do with just anyone. If truly like a person and the connection is there go for it; other than that not really commenting ha ha. Details about that aspect of my life should definitely be between me and whomever I decide to be with.
Q: New routines?
A: Well for spring/summer right now I am doing Love Me Like You Do, Yellow Raincoat, and Bad Girl [Madonna] there are a couple songs throwing around I may do a routine to have to wait and see!
Sunday, February 3, 2013
fears are to be overcome [and mine are coming down one by one]
most may know or heard I have the biggest fear of doing runway shows; think it is mostly in part of having that comparison with my Mum. Not that I don't mind it but in all actuality it is the fear of letting people down...the pressure because people who were familiar with my Mum have super high expectations; my fear is not living up to them. On another note, I for a long while had been anti runway because it was more to have my own identity so to speak, but today think finally overcame those fears about my modeling and me as a person. I learned that it is okay to be like my parents and it is also okay to have a little bit of "me" in there as well...like a balance between the two. I've been so fortunate to have two really amazingly talented and creative parents and not just myself but my sisters and brother as well because they too are creatives in their own rights.
I am finally getting to that point in my life of acceptance and being content or at least at peace with how things are for right now. So, I kind of exorcised my "demons" [so to speak figuratively] and made peace with the fact of who my parents were and the person I am becoming and hope to still become. We're not perfect we all make mistakes but that helps us grow and I too am still in that growing and learning stage of life. So far, just taking steps at a time...and finally discovered walking the runway isn't so scary after all. Plus it also helps when they play Justin while walking...that definitely helps! LOL!!!!
I am finally getting to that point in my life of acceptance and being content or at least at peace with how things are for right now. So, I kind of exorcised my "demons" [so to speak figuratively] and made peace with the fact of who my parents were and the person I am becoming and hope to still become. We're not perfect we all make mistakes but that helps us grow and I too am still in that growing and learning stage of life. So far, just taking steps at a time...and finally discovered walking the runway isn't so scary after all. Plus it also helps when they play Justin while walking...that definitely helps! LOL!!!!
Saturday, February 2, 2013
ducks>>>swans
as most may know [or may not know] that my background is in ballet [much like my idol Dita von Teese] but this is one piece I love to watch endlessly and in fact one of my ballet instructors was trained by Mikhail Fokine's [choreographer of this piece] son, so yea always felt really intimidated while in class. Nonetheless, I am so thankful that my Mum introduced me to ballet because it has given me some of the happiest moments in my life; performing for me has been an amazing outlet and I would definitely be in a dark place if not for these creative outlets in my life. If anything, hope that dance and music can help others as it has for me, which is why it's so important to pass it on. This piece in particular is considered extremely difficult because the dancer is on pointe for a little over two minutes [which is hard...I've tried it!] so it does take some really amazing training and technique to dance and I admire anyone who is able to pull off the choreography.
The idea [at least how it was always explained to me] is that the story is based upon a species of swans where they don't make a sound until the die then they make what can be considered a beautiful song, hence the term "swan song" in any case the music was composed by French composer Camille Saint-Saens and was originally choreographed by Mikhail Fokine and first performed by Anna Pavlova.
xoxo
Nat
The idea [at least how it was always explained to me] is that the story is based upon a species of swans where they don't make a sound until the die then they make what can be considered a beautiful song, hence the term "swan song" in any case the music was composed by French composer Camille Saint-Saens and was originally choreographed by Mikhail Fokine and first performed by Anna Pavlova.
xoxo
Nat
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