Becoming a hospice nurse has been one of the most challenging yet rewarding experiences of my life thus far. I promised my parents before pursuing any type of performance career I would attend school and earn some sort of training...my ultimate decision was nursing. Always felt the need to help others; before I finished my clinicals was told by one of my advisers that hospice is probably one of the most demanded type of nursing. I know understand why as it is very emotionally difficult and for myself dealing with my own grief trying to help others through the same ordeal can have extremely difficult times. If one thing I did learn is that the smile, laugh, hug, hand holding may be the last time someone will ever do those sorts of things with that patient. It puts everything into perspective and has made me so grateful for each and every single day and how lucky we are. Tonight had one lady tell me she felt as if she didn't fit in with everyone else and that she was "different". I played/sang the following song for her because it is okay to be different by society standards nothing wrong with it. So yes, I will continue to fight for the underdogs maybe it is because I have always been one myself; but my patients are so strong and fighters they inspire me every single day. If anything when not performing being in nursing is the second best thing I could experience. So please be kind to one another...and don't be afraid to raise your glasses :-)
I am having one of those moments where creatively it seems everything is just wanting to burst out like all at once. Routines are just over flowing with choreography, writing music and basically in a "zone" mode if that even makes sense to anyone. So for those who are wondering we're on break until the 24th of this month then I begin performing again; I miss being on the stage and having that creative outlet..I miss performing, I miss the "Pagers" they make me smile and never would have thought that in a million years. Right now, I am just a bubble of random uncollective thoughts. It only seems to make sense in music then it sounds perfectly clear. Maybe it is me growing as a person and a performing; people have said I've changed and maybe so...sort of grew a lot mean no longer that cutesy little girl with a Mia Farrow haircut....still the same...just a woman now...I just need a fedora and everything will be complete. But for now...think Possession by Sarah McLachlan says it all perfectly. xoxo, Nat
One. I love historical fiction stories. I love history so anything that is remotely close to a historical fiction sort of story I will read and re read [or watch]. As mentioned before L'amant by Marguerite Duras is one of my favourite novels considering it takes place in Indochina [when the French colonized Vietnam]; it also reminds me of my family and because of my Dad's work we were all born in Indochina for the most part hence why we grew up speaking French [we had to in school] but more so my older sisters. Nonetheless here is another favourite scene from the film L'amant and yea...maybe at heart I am just a hopeless romantic but think this is one of the most sensual scenes in the film it's innocent yet at the same time we know or get an idea what is going to happen later....yea okay so I am a Libra...go figure ha ha. I am still awaiting my French copy to arrive where is it anyway?? :-p
I have been fascinated for a while with dopplegangers maybe it is because I just recently watched Qui est Veronique? (Who is Veronique?) a French/Polish film about dopplegangers where apparently two women who look a like except one lives in Poland the other France....so I decided to try a few sites to see who my dopplegangers would be and according to 5 different sites the top one was
Marion Cotillard
Mila Kunis (to which I really don't get?)
But personally I feel my true doppleganger is my Auntie (my Dad's sister even my Dad used to admit it)
Q: Explain again what is your heritage? A: my Dad was Ukrainian and my Mum was Native American Choctaw/Cherokee
Q: What type of modeling do you do? A: I am a promotional model for various companies and a pin up model. I am also a burlesque performer...shhhh....LOL!
Q: Have you been published? A: Yes. I have had articles published and been in a calendar as well it is still surreal to me about it though.
Q: Do you consider yourself a "local" celebrity? A: No, although some say that I am. It is weird when people do come up to me and even recently had someone ask me for an autograph...not used to that at all!!! So yea, when people recognize me it is weird to me because I still see myself as a girl just enjoying life.
Q: But you had relatively famous parents? A: Yes, but I [and my sisters/brother] were all so sheltered. I think my parents wanted us to be "normal" especially with me when I started modeling at 14 they were so protective.
Q: How did you come about pin up modeling? A: I've always loved anything vintage. I've done editorial and some high fashion but I just love pin up the most. It's fun, quirky much like my own personality it just suits me more I think.
Q: Which models have you worked with? A: Well, I did work with one who is a relatively known editorial/high fashion model [and for Maxim] who ended up becoming one of my best friends! We met at a casting of all places haha. We just became fast friends she has since retired from modeling but yea she's my girl!!
Q: Who is your favorite model? A: right now Arizona Muse. I just love her!! Models aren't the same as when I was younger and it wasn't that long ago. I mean no offense but the models like Cindy Crawford, Heidi Klum don't exist anymore it seems. They are personalities and just not too keen on the newer ones.
Q: How many tattoos do you have? A: I have 9 tattoos haha. I am planning a few more one in tribute to my big brother who was killed in a car accident last month. But yes, I feel tattoos at least in my experience mark different aspects of my life significant moments.
Q: What are your tattoos? A: I don't always talk about my tattoos and what they are. But my favourite is the one on my back. It's in tribute to my family.
Q: Why don't you talk about your tattoos? A: When I got my very first tattoo there was so much controversy over it, like literally. People were even protesting to have me ex communicated from the Eastern Orthodox Church over it; I feel it is my body, my choices no one else's and if I decide to get a tattoo that should be my personal experience. Going through that ordeal was hard and I don't talk about them because people judge so much anymore. But hey, I have learned cannot make everyone happy and if I decide it it's on me...no one else so people can just live with it....
Q: Why don't you like the media/paparazzi? A: It isn't all media just I remember when my parents died and there was so much going on. I just felt like why can't my family just grieve in peace? I remember all the news articles about my Dad etc and I just wanted to go somewhere and hide. People need privacy and I could walk into a room and say I like green peas and people will make that into a drug reference. So, think that is one reason I am so private even now. Another reason too is I grew up knowing my parents one way and after they died learning via the media things about their lives just really threw a different aspect on how I see people. Sure, no one is perfect you know? But yea it isn't the media as a whole...but will admit too that my friends and I do make fun of the paparazzi quite a bit though.
Yes. Like many I am scrolling through my twitter account and read the same things as everyone else. But, as of late I have noticed that there have been some telling tweets [as well speculations, rumours, etc] going on about celebrities private lives, especially Justin's. Now, part of me being the Libra that I am trying very hard to be diplomatic, tactful and trying to ignore everything that is going on [it's pretty much how I am] ; but there is a fine line between having opinions and using the rumour mill to further a career or stretch the ever increasing 15 mins of fame to which it seems many people in my generation love to have. So here are my opinions on certain things and people do not have to agree with me and that is okay don't have to; thankfully I currently reside in a country where individuals are entitled to express their opinions on topics. First and foremost like many, yes I was shocked about the entire smoking weed that is currently circulating. I think growing up in the music world and having several family members who are musicians it is something that me personally does not necessarily shock me. Would I do it? No it is not something that I am into...not saying I am better than anyone else it just isn't my thing; secondly, he is an adult the choices [and even mistakes] are for him to learn and grow as a person. I do not know not one single "perfect" person so for people to sit and continuously judge about what he does...really is not fair. Granted, people see him as a role model for young children but what we should be teaching our children that even role models are not perfect and are human. If there is one "perfect" role model it should be God [for those who are religious as I am] and if anything those are the sorts of people we should strive to be as because as mentioned before...we're just human it isn't fair to judge someone based on choices; I am sure there are things other people may decide to do that may be appalling for others so let's just be fair. I think people are so quick to judge someone and of course the media is thirsty; but then again I lost all respect for most media after the handling of the death of my own parents. It was if my sisters and I could not grieve in peace without the media doing something and quite honestly...think that was the first time where I learned how we perceive people and how they truly are can be quite different. Needless to say, I still love him regardless. He isn't perfect...but then again no one is. Is it something that I would personally do...no it isn't but that does not mean I am just going to leave a person because he does something I wouldn't agree with see to me that is so conditional and flaky. Would I worry...of course because if one thing would not wish for him to go down a much more serious path but he isn't the first celebrity [if he does in fact] or person to smoke. I mean in reality it could be photo shopped or anything so don't be so quick to make assumptions about anything we see...especially if it comes from the media. We should focus more on the positive aspects instead of creating rumours and chaos over irrelevant issues. I focus on the fact that he has a big heart which should be the most important thing; it just seems as if someone is trying to do something positive there are always people who are negative who try to bring that person down. But am I leaving...no way...here to stay. the end and I wouldn't want to love a perfect person anyway...perfect for people can be quite boring.....
call me weird [okay, I admit I am pretty weird it's okay to say it] but I have issues with artichokes for the longest. So today, I mustered up enough courage to try some artichoke on my turkey sandwich...plus also trying to be more healthy so figured why not give it a try. The thing is...I really dislike artichokes like they are disgusting to me. So decided to try a new food for once and mean couldn't hurt...right?? Turned out it wasn't so bad. I will admit not going to eat artichokes all the time but occasionally wouldn't mind added it here or there to my sandwiches or other snacks. Artichokes...you slowly won me over..... :-p
